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Autumnus

by Rswll

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  • Cassette + Digital Album

    The Sabotage Montage on tape, containing all four Quadrants:

    • Vernus
    • Estivus
    • Autumnus
    • Hibernus

    Packaging, pad print artwork and slipcase designed by Rswll. This special release is limited to only 96 copies and will not be reproduced. Each copy is numbered in black Sharpie by Rswll's hand.

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    - Wrapped in a Double Cassette Slipcase (w/ Thumbholes)
    - Clear Cassette with Metallic Red Liner
    - Super Ferro Normal-Bias Tape
    - Unique Pad Prints on Each Side of the Cassettes
    - Professionally Real-Time Duplicated

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  • Full Digital Discography

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    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality downloads of 2019, POSSESS YOURSELF!, Hibernus, Autumnus, Estivus, The SABOTAGE MONTAGE, Vernus, How I learned to love the bomb., and 4 more. , and , .

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1.
KAFKAESQUE AT BEST 03:44
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Some nights I’m not strong enough to brush my teeth My loneliness feeds on scalp and feet and my Brain fries a crispness under this skull I, the single witness to this cull-and-response Ridiculousness Circular circuses This listless autothysis kisses every night By sunrise I survive I’m evergreen Christmas tree patient Waiting for the possibility of Lie-lie-lights Lights in my eyes Tonigh-nigh-night Tonight I’m on fire I scrawled an essay on the brick wall I once called lover Emptied or freer—so I tell myself Saucily pocket my wealth Toasted to my health Toast my head with every thought and word We reverb Nothing served too absurd for me On this ungodly Kafkaesque night Know my phone is spitefully bright I’m praying still I’ll see it jump alive For someone might be thinking of me Wanna fight me, maybe ride me Hell, I’d be so damn delighted If I ever luckily see Lights Lights in my eyes Tonight Tonight I’m on fire I’m the littlest Sickest masochist Lick the tip of it Dancing off the precipice Flicking with the fits Riffing on the risk In the thick of it Dancing off the precipice I’m the littlest Sickest masochist Lick the tip of it Dancing off the precipice Flicking with the fits, yah Riffing on the risk, yah In the thick of it Falling right into Lights Lights in my eyes Tonight Tonight I’m on fire Fire Fire! On fire! I’m on fire! Oh, I’m on fire! Oh, I’m on fire! Oh, I’m on fire! I’m on fire! I’m on fire!
2.
SISYPHEAN 04:13
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Toothaches these days shake like earthquakes Can’t afford to replace all the bones I break Head blanker than the calendar pages Outdoors, another world war rages, fuck Why try? When everything is failing, huh? Good bye Apocalypse is waiting for me I’ll drop dead Balance all I’ve broken My bed is a palanquin of hopelessness (So why try? So why try? So why try? Why try?) (That’s my shit That’s my shit) Online, I scrawl my mythology Desperate to connect to the pedagogy Gee, I’m disparate, distant from my body Paralysed by self-fulfilling prophecy, so Why try? When everyone is failing, huh? Good bye Apocalypse is waiting for me I’ll drop dead Balance all I’ve broken My bed is a palanquin of hopelessness (Why try!) Success and blessings for the phoneys (Why try!) Impressed by the decorative potpourri (Why try!) My best is suckling this ennui (Why try!) My chest is a catacomb of hopelessness! Hopelessness! Hopelessness! Hopelessness! Why try! When everything— Hopelessness! Why try! When everything— Hopelessness! Hopelessness! Hopelessness! Hopelessness
3.
TALKSHOW 02:56
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Through my eyes The whole world’s watching me So I smile for the camera Bored of every script And in my head I’m a fallen megastar Workshopped monologues Now a lifelong fraud Trigger cutscenes Sit back and watch Characters talk and talk and talk and Trigger cutscenes Sit back and watch Lonely is my god Welcome to the talkshow Swallowed my apostles Finally famous I could be the muse Then I could play the maker Fuck it, I’ll fake it Welcome to the talkshow To the talkshow Caught up in the talkshow now My whole life Caught up in the talkshow So I still laugh at the jokes When you’re not around nor coming Back to business never could finish In my head, I can get it right Let’s trigger cutscenes Sit back and watch Characters talk and talk and talk and Trigger cutscenes Sit back and watch Lonely is my god Welcome to the talkshow Swallowed my apostles Finally famous I could be the muse Then I could play the maker Fuck it, I’ll fake it Welcome to the talkshow To the talkshow Caught up in the talkshow now My whole life Caught up in the talkshow No one understands No one ever will No one understands No one ever will No one understands No one ever will No one understands No one ever will No one understands No one ever will No one understands No one ever will so (Everything’s fine! Everything’s fine! Everything’s fine! Everything’s fine! Everything’s fine! Everything’s fine! Everything’s fine! Everything’s...)
4.
ZIM 05:27
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Gotta fill the void with empty shit I’m afraid of the static and the meaninglessness So I found true love in an acid trip And I woke up alone on the floor, naked Like a little lost seed on cold concrete Staring at the greener grass I may never reach I cannot describe my loss of speech So my mistakes are my mystique But you were an island of meaning In a sea of nihilism Now that you’re gone I might drown Drown, yeah You were a shoreline of reason To a sea of oblivion Now that you’re gone I might drown Drown I’m a stupid alien A failing chameleon Trying to fit in I’m trying, I’m trying I’m a stupid alien A failing chameleon Try to take it in I’m trying, I’m trying, I Maybe it’s my lack of mirror neurons I smile too flatly, at least it I put it on I don’t interface, never interact with the game You cardboard cutouts of human shapes (Comedies are tragedies are funny lately My whole life on a cruel god’s telly) But you were an island of meaning In a sea of nihilism Now that you’re gone I might drown Drown, yeah You were a shoreline of reason To a sea of oblivion Now that you’re gone I might drown Drown I’m a stupid alien A failing chameleon Trying to fit in I’m trying, I’m trying I’m a stupid alien A failing chameleon Try to take it in I’m trying, I’m trying, I’m Good busy broke I trip and I smoke My life is a joke But I’m good busy broke I’m good busy broke I trip and I smoke My life is a joke But I’m good busy broke I make him work Make him fuck Make him fucking fall in love! Make him dance Make him sing Making up my favourite sim! I make him work Make him fuck Make him fucking fall in love! Make him dance Make him sing Making up my favourite sim! ‘Cause you were an island of meaning In a sea of nihilism Now that you’re gone I might drown You were a shoreline of reason To a sea of oblivion Now that you’re gone I might drown I’m a stupid alien A failing chameleon Trying to fit in I’m trying, I’m trying! I’m a stupid alien A failing chameleon Try to take it in I’m trying, I’m trying I’m trying, I’m trying I’m trying, I’m trying I’m trying, I’m trying I’m trying, I’m trying
5.
ZODIAC KILLER 04:08
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(I don’t have to be here anymore I don’t have to be here anymore) Everyday the pit in my stomach Stirs a wee bit stickier Venus flytraps a hopeful kid The little shit just wanted some sugar So high, might stab every star in sight But I’m a fatalistic cherrypicker So I’ma have a ball till my slipper falls And when the whole show blows to smithereens Oh, I’ll be running for my life Running from myself I’m running from my life now Running for myself (Look at him go!) Little green running man Knows it’s never too much I can quit me any time There’s never any rush No, I’m a little green running man With one foot out the door I don’t have to be here anymore I don’t have to be here anymore I can quit this any time Emergency exit, you’re my zodiac Smacked me off the balcony I’ve leapt clean off before, I’m sure There’s no use opening my doors If the whole whorehouse is watching porn And I’m running for my life Running from myself I’m running from my life now Running for myself (Look at him go!) Little green running man Knows it’s never too much No, no, no I can quit me any time There’s never any rush No, I’m a little green running man With one foot out the door I don’t wanna be me anymore I don’t wanna be me anymore I can quit me any time Emergency exit, you’re my zodiac Signs! Signs! (Signs, symbols, signs, symbols) Signs! Signs! (Signs, symbols, signs, symbols) I’m a little green running man With one foot out the door One of these days I’ll stop running And realise my legs have been broken All along
6.
EXISTENTIAL ACUPUNCTURE 05:14
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He tells me to prove my existence I don’t know how to do that anymore I could send him body parts Do they belong to me? “Roughly” He brusquely blocks me, well This is what happens When I pause Netflix Feeling smart enough to send Messages to anonymous… Oh shit Better than this Am I better than this When this keeps happening I pause Netflix Thought I’m hot enough to send Messages to anonymous Idiots Oh shit Better than this Am I better than this? When I wanna pop holes in my windpipe Pushpins on the wah-wah-wall Staring down the barrel of the gun Until I feel the rights and rah-rah-wrongs They keep me up all night We’ll be up all night Keep me out all night We’ll be out all night Keep me up all night Me and the pushpins on the wah-wah-wall Kick a crown off Castles fall with the drawbridge As he drowns in my moat of consciousness I’m barking like a mad bitch I apologise to the wrong guy maybe fifty times But he needed fifty-one What the fuck? I’m not that dumb This is what happens When I pause Netflix Feeling smart enough to send Messages to anonymous dicks Oh shit Better than this Am I better than this A quick fix? When This keeps happening I pause Netflix Thought I’m hot enough to send Messages to anonymous Idiots Oh shit Better than this Am I better than this When I wanna pop holes in my windpipe Pushpins on the wah-wah-wall Dancing in the barrel of the gun Until I feel the rights and rah-rah-wrongs They keep me up all night We’ll be up all night Keep me out all night We’ll be out all night Keep me up all night Me and the pushpins on the wah-wah-wall If acupuncture is therapy Surely this pushpin is meant for me If acupuncture is therapy Clearly I have no enemies If acupuncture is therapy Surely this pushpin is meant for me If acupuncture is therapy I am my only enemy with (Holes in my windpipe Pushpins on the wall Dancing in the barrel of the gun Until I feel the rights and wrongs They keep me up all night We’ll be up all night Keep me out all night We’ll be out all night Keep me up all night Me and the pushpins on the wah-wah-wall) We f— (We fight! Me and the pushpins on the wall We fight Me and the pushpins on the wall We fight Me and the pushpins on the wall We fight Me and the pushpins on the wall, wall We fight Me and the pushpins on the wall We fight, fight, fight Me and the pushpins on the wall)
7.
HIGH ROLLERS 06:07
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Soak the walls in smoke Crackle stones in pipes Pairing pills like wine Gourmet death, dining fine Gonna go to Hell tonight Tell you if it’s boring Roll your eyes, saucer-wide UFO flight Tonight I’m where I’m going Drove insane clean off a cliff Psycho high, no hokum I confide abyss I never could escape my cynical frame Supercilious pawn in a pointless game Rollin’ my die Rollin’ my die Rollin’ my Dice my life away Every little square is a walk of shame Same as I was then but tomorrow ain’t today So I’m rollin’ my die Rollin’ my die Rollin’ my Dice my life away Let’s roll Roll! Roll! My-my, my-my Roll My-my-my Let’s roll Roll Roll My-my, my-my Roll My-my-my See ya on the flip side Psychically disintegrating Oh, fuck my progress I’ll just pop up in a second save (woo!) Gonna go to heaven tonight And surely die of boredom Fill me with your Come and rip my body open Tonight I’m where I’m going Drove insane clean off a cliff Psycho high, no hokum I confide abyss I never could escape my cynical frame Supercilious pawn in a pointless game rollin’ my die Rollin’ my die Rollin’ my Dice my life away Every little square is a walk of shame Same as I was then but tomorrow ain’t today So I’m rollin’ my die Rollin’ my die Rollin’ my Dice my life away Let’s roll Roll! Roll! My-my, my-my Roll My-my-my Let’s roll Roll Roll My-my, my-my Roll My-my-my I hope that’s my little heart giving out Not the sound of you beside me getting up I don’t wanna wake up again tonight, tonight, tonight I hope that’s my little heart giving out Not the sound of you beside me getting up I don’t wanna wake up again tonight No, no, no ‘Cause I never could escape my cynical frame Supercilious pawn in a pointless game Just rollin’ my die Rollin’ my die Rollin’ my Dice my life away Every little square is a walk of shame Same as I was then but tomorrow ain’t today So I’m rollin’ my die Rollin’ my die Rollin’ my Dice my life away Let’s roll Roll! Roll! Roll! My-my-my Roll My-my-my God (What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going?)
8.
BODYWEIGHTS 05:54
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Diving off the balcony again Sunk cost fallacies made our bed Open up your heart so I can shit on it Well, aren’t we friends? Hanging overhead, my sunny guillotine I weaponise death Methamphetamine breath Go ahead, sure, played you like a puppet But emotional blackmail ain’t a long string Now you’re in for a penny So we’re in for a pound Another kilogram of my bodyweight To hold you down I will hold us down So won’t you carry me Once I die in your lap Won’t you lift me up? My clearcut math Will you bury me When I die in your lap? You could be the straw man Ride the camel’s back Culpability is so damn easy When healing is too facile Who am I without this precious hopelessness? Raised a palace in a graveyard Played the king Living life on a chessboard Where no one wins Unchecked, my Emotional blackmail is a long game But I’m in for a penny Now we’re in for a pound Another kilogram of my bodyweight To slow me down I‘ll slow us down So won’t you carry me Once I die in your lap Won’t you lift me up? My clearcut math Will you bury me When I die in your lap? You could be the straw man Ride the camel’s back And carry me (And carry me! Yeah, and carry me! Oh, and carry me! Yeah, just carry me!) Don’t come too close, please I’m trying to keep You safe from me From me I’m a little black hole Sinking through the earth (Don’t you know?) Putty in the palm I’m your little iceberg Just a bodyweight On your bodyweight On my bodyweight On your bodyweight On my I’m still reeling from Oh, everything But I floss more At least I floss more (I’m still reeling from everything But you can hold me till then) Yes, I’m a little whirlpool Spinning down the drain, but You can swim along till then My friend A bodyweight on your Bodyweight on my Bodyweight on your Bodyweight on my Bodyweight on your Bodyweight on my... (Colouring me in till I finally snap Tallying hope till I finally snap) No lifeguard can save me now (Interlocking fingers till I finally snap Colouring me in till I finally snap)

about

“Autumnus” is the third Quadrant of ‘The Sabotage Montage’ tetralogy.

'The Sabotage Montage' is informed by a cornucopia of styles: the dynamism of classical music; the roughly hewn, DIY ethos of punk; the rhythms and cadences of hip-hop and R&B; the meticulous studio programming of neurotic electronica.

None of this would float without the buoyant pop hooks lending levity to Rswll's otherwise grim subject matter. Rswll frames his vignettes of drug abuse, suicidal ideation, and debilitating isolation with colourful melodies and a sardonic humour. As an autobiographical lyricist, uncomfortable intimacy is his focal goal.

Given patience and an attentive ear, the project's internal logic rewards in spades: both lyrics and sounds allude to psychic bruises and unresolved guilt as Rswll's narrator develops, as heralded themes soon overstay their welcome.

But this deeper reading is hardly demanded. On the surface, these are sturdy pop gems built for headphone-listening, for introverts flailing alone in bedrooms, for laughing, wailing, singing along.

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released September 17, 2021

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