The SABOTAGE MONTAGE

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1.	machismo & his masochist 04:12	lyrics
This Spring I buried a man Inside my head as I held his hand Malevolent tongue snaked out Soft palms napalm southpaws now Fireworks and smokescreens The belle-of-the-ball or GHB? A neon-lit reverie Far from the bitch he’d breed I’ll just give it thanks And you can turn to crank, man A gram of love left never grand enough Instead of filling blanks Well, I’d rather keep it frank, man You can keep gruff with a heart so tough but I’ll be Calling you out on your shit I’m just Calling you out on it I’m just Calling you out on your shit I’m just I’m waiting for karma’s kiss Boy I’ll be your masochist Boy Calling you out Oh, I Wonder if he’s still cruel and dismissive Finicky tempest-tempered and capricious So pitiful, his little criminal Rebuffed till he fucked me a little, well... Fireworks and smokescreens The belle-of-the-ball amphetamine dreamin’ A neon-lit reverie Far from the bitch I’d breed So I’ll just give it thanks And maybe turn to crank, man A gram of love left never grand enough And ‘stead of firing blanks Well, I’d rather keep it frank, man You can keep gruff with a heart so tough but I’ll be Calling you out on your shit I’m just Calling you out on it I’m just Calling you out on your shit I’m just I’m waiting for karma’s kiss Boy I’ll be your masochist Boy Calling you out Oh, I Yeah I know you wanna screw me better But I’ll be in my head forever No I won’t be your scarlet letter But I hope there’s someone worth your pain Yeah, I hope there’s someone worth your pain And I hope I’m someone worth this pain ‘Cause I’m just Calling you out on your shit I’m just Calling you out on it I’m just Calling you out on your shit I’m just... Yeah, I know you wanna fuck me better! But I’ll be in my head forever So maybe I am just too tender But I hope there’s someone worth this pain Yeah, I hope there’s someone worth this (Pain!)
2.	potluck 03:17	lyrics
Honestly, I don’t know what it is about people Can’t relate most days in a free fall when Being equal is harder than it looks Narrating the story but Who the fuck wrote this book? I’m gonna need more Drugs if I keep living I’m gonna need to Pick up my slack I’m gonna need more Love if I keep giving out Gonna need my stupid body back Oh, suck it up! Write it down and forget it I’ll pop a potluck of anaesthetics Suck it up! Ride it out like I’ve read it I’ll pop a potluck of anaesthetic Oh, I’ll pop a potluck of anaesthetic Yeah, I’ll pop a potluck of anaesthetic Honestly, I don’t know what it is about myself Carved an epitaph then a toast to my health In a suicide note from a murderous plan All so insignificant but isn’t life just grand? I’m gonna need more Drugs if I keep living I’m gonna need to Pick off your slacks I’m gonna need more Love if I keep giving out Gonna need your stupid body back Oh, suck it up! Write it down and forget it I’ll pop a potluck of anaesthetic Suck it up! Ride it out like I’ve read it I’ll pop a potluck of anaesthetic Sometimes I forget to tell myself I’ve done nothing to justify this cruelty, yeah Times I get to tell myself I’ve done Everything to die more brutally Oh, suck it up! Write it down and forget it I’ll pop a potluck of anaesthetic Suck it up! Ride it out like I’ve read it I’ll pop a potluck of anaesthetic I’m gonna need more Drugs if I keep living I’m gonna need to try to not crack I’m gonna need more Love if I keep giving I’m gonna need that knife in my back (Oh, suck it up! Write it down and forget it I’ll pop a potluck of anaesthetics Suck it up! Ride it out like I’ve read it I’ll pop a potluck and just drop dead)
3.	rain dancer 03:49	lyrics
I’m a wrecking ball of a broken heart You’re an easy match; I’m a wildcard It’s a stupid game I never win Find my trigger fingers itching for this killing to begin Flashing a deadpan Dazzle with ease Reeling you in Slashing the leash I am a stopgap gimcrack whore But lately I’ve been looking for One more foot in the door No, I don’t take much to come crawling back again I won’t fall on my sword But I’ll be just fine till I’m firing rapidly “Fuck you! I hate you!” We still hook up when I’m outta self-love Might be token But I’m still hoping for Rain Rain Dreaming of you when I’m hard—on luck I get roughed around till I toughen up Then I’m cursing these cutpurses stealing my heart Rolling my eyes as I’m not that hard I’m a flash in the pan Spitting up grease Come in your mouth but I piss in the breeze I am a stopgap gimcrack whore But lately I’ve been looking for One more foot in the door No, I don’t take much to come crawling back again I won’t fall on my sword But I’ll be just fine till I’m firing rapidly “Fuck you! I hate you!” We still hook up when I’m outta self... Might be token But I’m still hoping for Rain Rain All it takes is softly holding your hand And all it takes is being the bigger man And all it takes is someone else in my bed All it takes is gently kissing your head ‘Cause I’m still open I’m still hoping for rain I’m still hoping I’m still open to change I’m still open I’m still hoping for rain I’m still hoping I’m still open to All that I require is (I won’t fall on my sword But I’ll be just fine, I swear!) ‘Cause it might be broken But I’m still hoping that I might be coping though I’m Likely joking when I’m Nightly smoking something Might be going insane Might be token but I’m still hoping to Change Fuck you, I hate you We still hook up when I’m outta self-love Might be token but I’m still hoping for Rain I’m still hoping for... (When I’m outta self-love When I’m outta self-love When I’m outta self-love When I’m outta self-love When I’m outta self-love When I’m outta self-love When I’m outta self...)
4.	transmogrification 03:59	lyrics
I cradle a catty reputation “Sticks and Stones” when I’m up for lapidation Laughing off all the scrubs I’ve dated Kinda difficult when they insist “We didn’t” Crawling along the snakes of the land I am the wicked You are the Man I have the knowledge I am the fruit But I’m not the wino Eyeing the flute The rush Of flying through the Forest Good luck According to the Chorus I’m stuck According to the Fables Good lord I’m running with all the Werewolves Awoo Awoo Awoo I flex my eerie meditations Patiently waiting, fear flipping faces These days, no agenda around Sucking me off and spitting me out, I'm Crawling along the snakes of the land I am the wicked You are the Man I have the knowledge I am the fruit But I’m not the wino, no, no I am the flute The rush Of flying through the Forest Good luck According to the Chorus I’m stuck According to the Fables Good lord I’m running with all the Werewolves Awoo Awoo Awoo I know I’ll figure out Some reason to make you leave Then I can hunt you down Once again between my teeth I’ve got this penchant for Letting all the good ones bleed Dancing in the moonlight Till I’m begging for some goddamn sleep (Sleep) Sleep ‘Cause I’m a werewolf! ‘Cause I’m a werewolf! ‘Cause I’m a werewolf! Oh, I’m running with all the werewolves! Running with all the werewolves! I’m running with all the werewolves! Running with all the werewolves! I’m feeling like I’m a werewolf! Oh, I’m feeling like I’m awoo Awoo!
5.	stone fruit 04:53	lyrics
I stake myself on a mine again On guard, I’m gardening, I Climb supine men, I’m vining Find surprising silver linings Sanctuary, sanctuary Body is a temple, so I’m fucking missionaries Maybe bury them in my epistolaries, but Soliloquies are better than obituaries so I could be your sweet summer son I could be your peaches and plums Scraping flesh off the pit of the pain All of my heartache in haste we’ve abated You taste it and waste it away Stone fruit I’m stone fruit I’m stone Stone fruit I’m stone fruit I’m stone Stone fruit I’m stone fruit I’m stone (Stone fruit, I’m stone fruit, I’m) Oh, suck away my heart, why don’t you? Sell me your magenta shades Don’t do the math, won’t solve my issues Just leave me where I‘m lain And if I never grow emotional Would you believe I still get hurt? I still marvel your proportions so Come twist my head off Let me show you how I turn Soliloquies are better than obituaries though Soliloquies are better than obituaries so I could be your sweet summer son I could be your peaches and plums Scraping flesh off the pit of the pain All of my softness is gravely degrading but I could be your sweet summer sun I could be your peaches and plums Scraping flesh off the pit of the pain All of my heartache in haste we’ve abated You taste it and waste it away Stone fruit I’m stone fruit I’m stone Stone fruit I’m stone fruit I’m I could be your sweet summer son! I could be your peaches and plums! Scraping flesh off the pit of the pain All of my softness is gravely degrading! But I could be your sweet summer son! I could be your peaches and plums! Scraping flesh off the pit of the pain All of my heartache You taste it and waste it away! All of my heartstrings are rotted away (Stone fruit, I’m stone fruit I’m stone fruit, I’m stone Stone fruit, I’m stone fruit I’m stone fruit, I’m stone Stone fruit, I’m stone fruit I’m stone fruit, I’m stone...)
6.	vae victis! 05:06	lyrics
Good enough to fuck so I’ll never be good enough To be your friend Good enough to start so I’ll never be smart enough To see the end Good enough to play but I’ll never be number one I know the game Dumb enough to win, thinking pawns are bound to change Well, the king’s the same  Tallies on the wall, gotta face that final score Thought I was a hero but I’m not sure anymore (Oh) I’m your supervillain I’m your supervillain, huh? I’m your supervillain I’m your supervillain so Screw my stupid feelings If I’m the supervillain in the end In the end I’m your supervillain I’m your supervillain, huh? I’m your supervillain I’m your supervillain so Maybe you might kill me If I’m the supervillain in the end In the end Good enough to fight so I’ll never need a hand to hold, no Entirely enough when I have a half painted gold You’re good enough to love but I’ll never love you that way Bad enough, I think of myself just the same Well the tally’s on the wall, gotta face that final score I could’ve been a hero but I’m not that anymore, no I’m your supervillain I’m your supervillain, huh? I’m your supervillain I’m your supervillain, so Screw my stupid feelings If I’m the supervillain in the end In the end I’m your supervillain I’m your supervillain, huh? I’m your supervillain I’m your supervillain, so Maybe you might kill me If I’m the supervillain in the end In the end Afraid to explain why Divinities never save my case Shape the matrices of my own damnation Rather than the victim I guess I’m your supervillain in the end In the end In the end In the end, end, end In the end, end, end In the end I’m your supervillain I’m your supervillain, huh? I’m your supervillain I’m your supervillain, so Maybe you might kill me If I’m the supervillain in the end In the end (I’m your supervillain I’m your supervillain, huh?) I’m your supervillain I’m your supervillain, so Maybe you should kill me If I’m the supervillain in the end In the end
7.	whoring 04:50	lyrics
I met my ex on a streetcar yesterday He recognised me, I him Tried to grab his gaze I looked up from my phone too late He was already looking away, well I’ll see him ‘round here once again And in my head, I do something Then reality hits: I’ll say nothing But in my head, ooh, I feel glad, I guess Then reality cuts like a knife right through my chest I don’t even know myself Choking on a wishing well Whoring for a little hope Starving stupid for the ropes Never get filled by seas so full of fish I confess my endless loneliness These men I fuck somehow keep showing up Skyline nor horizon ever wide enough I looked up from my phone too early Now I’m leaving in a hurry I’ll see him ‘round here once again And in my head (In my head) I do something  (I do something ) Then reality hits  (Reality hits) I’ll say nothing (Say nothing) But in my head (In my head) Ooh, I feel glad, I guess Then reality cuts like razors through my chest I don’t even know myself Choking on a wishing well Whoring for a little hope Starving stupid for the ropes I’ll never get filled by seas so full of fish I confess my endless loneliness I’m a misanthropic Humanist at heart This silly scum’s my favourite part I’m a misanthropic Humanist at heart This city scum’s my miserable art I’m a misanthropic Humanist at heart This silly scum’s my favourite part I’m a misanthropic Humanist at heart The city scum’s my personal, miserable art And why I don’t even know myself Choking on a wishing well Whoring for a little hope Starving stupid for the ropes Never get filled by seas so full of fish I confess my endless loneliness When I don’t even know myself I don’t! I don’t even know myself No I don’t! But I’m still here! I won’t disappear! No, I’m still here! I WON’T DISAPPEAR! I’m still here I won’t disappear I’m still here I won’t disappear I’m still here I won’t disappear (I’m still here) I’m still here I won’t disappear (I’m still here) I’m still here No, I’m still here I’m still here I’m still here
8.	empathy & other challenges 05:28	lyrics
(You) You made me wait up in the rain I’m always bathing in the blame So how does it feel, huh? Tugging on my leash Oh I’m tracing all your moves and plays Pacing every night, stuck in place So how does it feel, uh? Tugging on my leash I can never sweep you off your feet Fleeting first impressions you believe So how does it feel? Tugging on my leash Oh I forever fuck up all I say Can’t we lay this down before the day? ‘Cause I know how it feels Hanging on the leash I’m too young to take you anywhere You’re too old to ever fucking care I know how this feels Dangled on the leash I will never stop trying to change, try to change, try to Failing all the rules of this old game, your old game ‘Cause I know how it feels, yeah Dangled on the leash Oh, all the way All the way All the way Oh, all the way All the way All the way (You know it feels I know it feels You know it feels I know it feels like You know it feels I know it feels You know it feels I know it feels like You know it feels I know it feels You know it feels I know it feels...) You made me wait up in the rain I know he left you in a hurricane Yeah, you know how it feels, baby So I know how it heals, too Now I do
9.	quixotism 07:31	lyrics
I was high enough to cross your map Split your smoke and call you back Spend a couple weeks unwrapped in your bed Rapturous reds rapping my head We wrapped up the dynamite truth Sang along to crackling fuse Your name: my favourite excuse Taught me like that Caught me like that, singing Six-hundred-sixty-six pop songs Gotta get you out of my head, my love Six-hundred-sixty-six pop songs Gotta get you out of my head, my love But I know you will never get out You know I would rather write it down I know you will never get out You know I would rather write it down Get out, my I, grabbing ankles, yanking me down Only banked on fucking around Sobbing in your kitchen, fallen in love Hearts-on-sleeve so off the cuff You were Captive to a Patti Smith book “Chained to The Rhythm,” Liz Phair, Kate Bush Silhouetted along the Spring greys You were insane! But I’m the same, singing Six-hundred-sixty-six pop songs Gotta get you out of my head, my love Six-hundred-sixty-six pop songs Gotta get you out of my head, my love But I know you will never get out You know I would rather write it down I know you will never get out You know I would rather write it down Get out, my love (Sha-la-la-la la-la la-la la Sha-la-la-la la-la la-la la Sha-la-la-la la-la la-la la Hit me like that, then I let it pass) It’s been years and some time Could call you once mine Can’t call you back, though It hit me like that but I’ve learned… I’ve learned I’ve learned I’ve learned.... Six-hundred-sixty-six pop songs Gotta get you out of my Gotta get you out of my Six-hundred-sixty-six pop songs Gotta get you out of my Gotta get you out of my (But I know you will never get out You know I would rather write it down I know you will never get out You know I would rather write out) Six-hundred-sixty-six pop songs Gotta get you out of my head, my love Six-hundred-sixty-six pop songs Gotta get you out of my head, my love But I know you will never get out You know I would rather write it down I know you will never get out You know I would rather write it down Get out, my love (Van Gogh watched from the window I knew then what I’ve always known Van Gogh watched from the window I knew then and I’ve always known) (I’m still running up that hill I’m still running up I’m still running up that hill I’m still running up) (Van Gogh watched from the window I knew then what I’ve always known Van Gogh watched from the window I knew then and I’ve always known) (I’m still running up that hill I’m still running up I’m still running up that hill I’m still running, my) I know I’m thinking, “Fuck you” But I secretly I secretly wanna save you I promise I’ll get so rich I’ll storm into that building Your dingy mess of an apartment That slum that’s no good for you Where I once tried to Keep the kitchen clean Where you sobbed into me Where you loathed my critique And I won’t have to drag you out For my riches will persuade My confidence, which will persuade You to follow me Perhaps another city Buy you some high-end neurotherapy That I read about years ago Still think about to this day Because I still think of you And all the shit You pump into your body Chipping your bullet of a brain Well I’m sorry for laughing at you Rusting the pillars And crumbling the walls Of that monster house you’ve made your home For reasons I never understood Thought if I set fire to the house You’d come running right out But you stayed And I stared I watched you burn So I can understand I know how I know now I will storm into that building Your knight in blazing armour I’ll forgive your dragon And you will be my prince I’ll fashion talismans out of chips on your shoulders Bond your hands in bandages I will save you Save you from yourself I know you better now I can love you now Much deeper than you ever will I’ll be so fucking sorry And you’ll forgive me in the end And finally the sun will set And I will return to sleep Where you don’t take the G without me Where we can sing all these Six-hundred-sixty-six pop songs Six-hundred-sixty-six pop songs We’ll be singing together Six-hundred-sixty-six pop songs We’ll duet over every single one
10.	x, after math 02:15	lyrics
(The consequences or after effects of a significant unpleasant event Do you want to hear the remaining one?) New grass growing after mowing or harvest I’m carried home under Mayfield sky darkness I could’ve loved a farm boy, a suburbanite queer A clever city slut—or at least his veneer Well, maybe I was someone Or maybe I will be Sometimes my potentials outweigh me Outweigh Away My eyes slide like cursive, scrolling the grass I sleep in the backseat of this aftermath Now I’m sliding the cursors and scrolling the glass Awake in the backseat of this aftermath (So what are you up to? Do you still hate me? I still wear that shirt you gave me Do you still wear the jockstrap I gave you Has it worn out, like me and mine? Remember when I had my hand inside you I do I try not to think of it Until some anonymous face brings you up again) And you’re up again And I’m up again Then I’m down again Again So what are you up to? Do you still hate me (Oh, what are you up to? Do you still hate me?) What are you up to? I hope you still hate me  The facility of clarity is all I really need from you, maybe
11.	keep you 04:20	lyrics
I eat my dinner in the bathtub Then I go to sex clubs Watch the freaky people getting it on They don't make me nervous If anything I'm restless Yeah, I've been around and I've seen it all So I I get home, I got the munchies Binge on all my Twinkies Throw up in the tub Go to sleep, I Drank up all my money Dazed and kind of lonely You're gone and I gotta stay high All the time Keep you off my mind, whoa-oh-oh High all the time Keep you off my mind, whoa-oh-oh So I spend my days locked in a haze Try to forget you, babe I fall back down I gotta stay high all my life Forget I'm missing you So I Pickup daddies at the playground How I spend my daytime Loosen up their frown Make 'em feel alive Yeah, I make it fast and greasy Numb and way too easy You're gone and I gotta stay high All the time Keep you off my mind, whoa-oh-oh High all the time Keep you off my mind, whoa-oh-oh So I spend my days locked in a haze Try to forget you, babe I fall back down I gotta stay high all my life Forget I'm missing you (Staying in my play-pretend Where the fun ain't got no end Can't go home alone again I need someone to numb this pain) So I'm staying in my play-pretend Where the fun ain't got no end, end No, I can't go home alone again Need someone to numb this pain You're gone And I gotta stay High All my life I gotta stay high All the time To keep you off my mind Woo-hoo-ooh-ooh High All the time To keep you off my mind Woo-hoo-ooh-ooh Spend my days locked in a haze Try to forget you, babe I fall back down Oh, I gotta stay high (Daddies at the playground Daddies at the playground Daddies at the playground Daddies at the playground)
12.	Jonathan 04:19	lyrics
(Daddies at the playground Daddies at the playground Daddies at the playground Daddies at the playground) You can keep the house Didn’t wanna move in anyway Thirty years ahead And you still wanna play it safe Y’know, Winter’s gone But you’re too cool for the Summer sun now? I just wanna go to the beach, my god I just wanna lay on the lawn But Jonathan You were never gonna let me in And I kept loosening But you’re uptight (You’re uptight, man!) Oh, Jonathan It’s a tug-of-war that I won’t win So sick of sewing ends together Till we’re alright (Not alright, no!) So you can keep the house You can live alone You can be a stranger again You can keep the house You can keep the house Keep it all Just push me away You can live alone You can be a stranger again, again You can keep the house You can keep the house Keep it all And you can keep your shirt on Know we’re not in love You’re thirty years ahead Still wanna play it dumb Well, Summer has come But I never did lose my cool for you Won’t you drop it for me, my god I just wanna lay on the lawn But Jonathan You were never gonna let me in And I kept loosening But you’re uptight (You’re uptight, man!) Oh, Jonathan It’s a tug-of-war that I won’t win So sick of sewing ends together Till we’re alright (We’re not alright, no!) So you can keep the house You can live alone You can be a stranger again You can keep the house You can keep the house Keep it all Just push me away You can live alone You can be a stranger again, again You can keep the house You can keep the house Keep it all One was Johnny, he lived on his own Two was a visitor in his home Three months pass before we turn back And one was Johnny One was Johnny, he lived all alone Two was a visitor in his home Three months pass before we turn back And one was Johnny! You can keep the house You can live alone You can be a stranger again You can keep the house You can keep the house You can keep your house You can keep the house You can keep the house Just push me away You can live alone You can be a stranger again, again You can keep the house Yeah, keep your fucking house! Keep it all Keep it all Keep it all Keep it all Yeah, keep it all, keep it all, keep it all
13.	unrepentant 04:30	lyrics
Just because you’ve let me down Doesn’t mean you oughta let me go, too I’ve only let you know how fungible you are to me To flex my sincerity But I’ll come scrabbling for breadcrumbs When you wander too far From the palace I have made of you Maybe then I’ll learn my lesson Screw my sour mouth shut ‘Till I have a bitter point to prove Ooh, ah, we’ll remember there’s not much to lose Just Me The problem is me Scald you in the honesty Blame it on economy Me The problem is me Push ‘em off a peak Can never believe their flying free I’m unrepentant I’m unrepentant Fucking up my life with “Oh, I meant it!” Yeah, unrepentant Unrepentant Fucking up my life I’m only fucking up my life I’m only Loving me When I think you think you’re cut above me What happens when I get over you? Gotta find out now I won’t like it when it’s found But that’s how pity starts pounding Oh, I’m the reason your guilt exists I’m the object onto which it is placed I chased you round the periphery So, honey, won’t you stick with me? I’d love to feel this control So I can dangle us beyond the edge Smugly let you know how I’ve learned To let go of Me The problem is me, me, me Scald you in the honesty Blame it on economy Me The problem is me, me, me Push ‘em off a peak Can never believe their flying free I’m unrepentant I’m unrepentant Fucking up my life with “Oh, I meant it!” Yeah Unrepentant I’m unrepentant Fucking up my life I’m only fucking up my life I’m only On my own Then I show Some remorse I’ll say anything to be a little less alone! So let it be me It’s me Scald you in the honesty My weakness is apology Me? Oh, I’ve gotten so mean Pushed ‘em off a peak Rather they bleed then watch ‘em leave I’m unrepentant (woo!) I’m unrepentant Fucked up my life but Oh, I meant it! Unrepentant I’m unrepentant Fucking up my life I’m only fucking up my life I’m only jumping on the knife I’m only Me
14.	coastin' 04:36	lyrics
I’ve been digging my shoebox grave Wishing for the other shoe to drop Shooting stars through my brain Dizzy on a Ferris wheel of pain Can’t discern the highs from the lows So my eyes hold the blame But, oh, god , I’m getting sick of this Oh, love, I’d really love to change But, oh, god, feeling like there’s something Here until again they hear me say I’m gonna go Maybe when it snows Somewhere by the coast Or the ocean floor Go sinking slowly The ocean floor Go sinking slowly The ocean floor I’ve hauled my heart through every city streetlight Met another lover in a cesspit night Sliding west, and east Forever losing someone No one here really wants to stay But, oh, god, I’m getting sick of this Oh, love, I’d really love to change But, oh, god, I‘m feeling like there’s something Here until again they hear me say I’m gonna go Maybe when it snows Somewhere by the coast Or the ocean floor Go sinking slowly The ocean floor Go sinking slowly The ocean floor I’ll go sinking slowly The ocean floor Go sinking slowly The ocean floor And I could float away For nothing golden stays And I won’t change my mind My m-m-mind I swear I’ll be just fine This time This time I’ve gotta go Maybe when it snows? Somewhere by the coast Or the ocean floor I’ll go sinking slowly The ocean floor I’ll go sinking slowly The ocean floor I’ll go sinking slowly The ocean floor I’ll go sinking slowly The ocean floor I’m gonna go Maybe when it snows Somewhere by the coast Or the ocean floor (Sinking slowly)
15.	necrophilia 03:56	lyrics
Let it go if you know it’s dead Necrophilia ain’t very cute, my friend All you’ve built and all you’ve lost All the same, all the same, don’t count the cost So let it go if you know it’s dead Necrophilia ain’t very cute, my friend Let it go if you know it’s dead Let it get out of your head And out of your hands and out of control You can’t cherrypick your lover’s goal Nor speak every pivotal poem From another’s heart nor another’s tongue You, yourself, must do what must be done Done Done (Your necrophilia was never that cute, my friend Your necrophilia was never that cute, my friend Your necrophilia was never that cute, my friend Your necrophilia was never that cute, my friend) Holding on is nice Just save it for your life Everything else may die But true love blossoms twice
16.	I miss chemsex 04:26	lyrics
I knew I loved you Back when I met you I really hurt you Deeper than I meant to So cut me out If you really think it’s doable And in the end I’ll say, “Well, at least the scar is beautiful!” I’ll miss his kiss and My lips on his legs But I miss chemsex Yes, I was at rest With his head on my chest But I miss chemsex I’m out without a Out without a Out without a Lo-o-ove Out without a Out without a love Out without a Out without a Out without a Lo-o-ove Out without a Out without a love I knew I hurt you Back when I left you I really loved you Deeper than I meant to So cut me down If you really think it’s suitable And in the end I’ll swing to heartbeats immutable But I’ll dance alone While he looks for the next Oh, I miss chemsex And I‘d like to think That the last was the best But I miss chemsex Now I’m out without a Out without a Out without a Lo-o-ove Out without a Out without a love (Do I really want it?) Out without a Out without a Out without a Lo-o-ove Out without a Out without a love I want you But I know I’m a mess No, I can’t trust my head I want you But I’ll find someone else I’m obsessed with regrettable, beddable chemicals Out Out Out Without a love (Do I really want it?) Out Out Out Without a love I’m (Out without a Out without a Out without a lo-o-ove Out without a Out without a love Out without a Out without a Out without a lo-o-ove Out without a Out without a love) Never knew I could be— (I wasn’t looking for love until Then I found you Now I’m out without your love, oh I wasn’t looking for love until Then I found you I wasn’t looking for love)
17.	KAFKAESQUE AT BEST 03:44	lyrics
Some nights I’m not strong enough to brush my teeth My loneliness feeds on scalp and feet and my Brain fries a crispness under this skull I, the single witness to this cull-and-response Ridiculousness Circular circuses This listless autothysis kisses every night By sunrise I survive I’m evergreen Christmas tree patient Waiting for the possibility of Lie-lie-lights Lights in my eyes Tonigh-nigh-night Tonight I’m on fire I scrawled an essay on the brick wall I once called lover Emptied or freer—so I tell myself Saucily pocket my wealth Toasted to my health Toast my head with every thought and word We reverb Nothing served too absurd for me On this ungodly Kafkaesque night Know my phone is spitefully bright I’m praying still I’ll see it jump alive For someone might be thinking of me Wanna fight me, maybe ride me Hell, I’d be so damn delighted If I ever luckily see Lights Lights in my eyes Tonight Tonight I’m on fire I’m the littlest Sickest masochist Lick the tip of it Dancing off the precipice Flicking with the fits Riffing on the risk In the thick of it Dancing off the precipice I’m the littlest Sickest masochist Lick the tip of it Dancing off the precipice Flicking with the fits, yah Riffing on the risk, yah In the thick of it Falling right into Lights Lights in my eyes Tonight Tonight I’m on fire Fire Fire! On fire! I’m on fire! Oh, I’m on fire! Oh, I’m on fire! Oh, I’m on fire! I’m on fire! I’m on fire!
18.	SISYPHEAN 04:13	lyrics
Toothaches these days shake like earthquakes Can’t afford to replace all the bones I break Head blanker than the calendar pages Outdoors, another world war rages, fuck Why try? When everything is failing, huh? Good bye Apocalypse is waiting for me I’ll drop dead Balance all I’ve broken My bed is a palanquin of hopelessness (So why try? So why try? So why try? Why try?) (That’s my shit That’s my shit) Online, I scrawl my mythology Desperate to connect to the pedagogy Gee, I’m disparate, distant from my body Paralysed by self-fulfilling prophecy, so Why try? When everyone is failing, huh? Good bye Apocalypse is waiting for me I’ll drop dead Balance all I’ve broken My bed is a palanquin of hopelessness (Why try!) Success and blessings for the phoneys (Why try!) Impressed by the decorative potpourri (Why try!) My best is suckling this ennui (Why try!) My chest is a catacomb of hopelessness! Hopelessness! Hopelessness! Hopelessness! Why try! When everything— Hopelessness! Why try! When everything— Hopelessness! Hopelessness! Hopelessness! Hopelessness
19.	TALKSHOW 02:56	lyrics
Through my eyes The whole world’s watching me So I smile for the camera Bored of every script And in my head I’m a fallen megastar Workshopped monologues Now a lifelong fraud Trigger cutscenes Sit back and watch Characters talk and talk and talk and Trigger cutscenes Sit back and watch Lonely is my god Welcome to the talkshow Swallowed my apostles Finally famous I could be the muse Then I could play the maker Fuck it, I’ll fake it Welcome to the talkshow To the talkshow Caught up in the talkshow now My whole life Caught up in the talkshow So I still laugh at the jokes When you’re not around nor coming Back to business never could finish In my head, I can get it right Let’s trigger cutscenes Sit back and watch Characters talk and talk and talk and Trigger cutscenes Sit back and watch Lonely is my god Welcome to the talkshow Swallowed my apostles Finally famous I could be the muse Then I could play the maker Fuck it, I’ll fake it Welcome to the talkshow To the talkshow Caught up in the talkshow now My whole life Caught up in the talkshow No one understands No one ever will No one understands No one ever will No one understands No one ever will No one understands No one ever will No one understands No one ever will No one understands No one ever will so (Everything’s fine! Everything’s fine! Everything’s fine! Everything’s fine! Everything’s fine! Everything’s fine! Everything’s fine! Everything’s...)
20.	ZIM 05:27	lyrics
Gotta fill the void with empty shit I’m afraid of the static and the meaninglessness So I found true love in an acid trip And I woke up alone on the floor, naked Like a little lost seed on cold concrete Staring at the greener grass I may never reach I cannot describe my loss of speech So my mistakes are my mystique But you were an island of meaning In a sea of nihilism Now that you’re gone I might drown Drown, yeah You were a shoreline of reason To a sea of oblivion Now that you’re gone I might drown Drown I’m a stupid alien A failing chameleon Trying to fit in I’m trying, I’m trying I’m a stupid alien A failing chameleon Try to take it in I’m trying, I’m trying, I Maybe it’s my lack of mirror neurons I smile too flatly, at least it I put it on I don’t interface, never interact with the game You cardboard cutouts of human shapes (Comedies are tragedies are funny lately My whole life on a cruel god’s telly) But you were an island of meaning In a sea of nihilism Now that you’re gone I might drown Drown, yeah You were a shoreline of reason To a sea of oblivion Now that you’re gone I might drown Drown I’m a stupid alien A failing chameleon Trying to fit in I’m trying, I’m trying I’m a stupid alien A failing chameleon Try to take it in I’m trying, I’m trying, I’m Good busy broke I trip and I smoke My life is a joke But I’m good busy broke I’m good busy broke I trip and I smoke My life is a joke But I’m good busy broke I make him work Make him fuck Make him fucking fall in love! Make him dance Make him sing Making up my favourite sim! I make him work Make him fuck Make him fucking fall in love! Make him dance Make him sing Making up my favourite sim! ‘Cause you were an island of meaning In a sea of nihilism Now that you’re gone I might drown You were a shoreline of reason To a sea of oblivion Now that you’re gone I might drown I’m a stupid alien A failing chameleon Trying to fit in I’m trying, I’m trying! I’m a stupid alien A failing chameleon Try to take it in I’m trying, I’m trying I’m trying, I’m trying I’m trying, I’m trying I’m trying, I’m trying I’m trying, I’m trying
21.	ZODIAC KILLER 04:08	lyrics
(I don’t have to be here anymore I don’t have to be here anymore) Everyday the pit in my stomach Stirs a wee bit stickier Venus flytraps a hopeful kid The little shit just wanted some sugar So high, might stab every star in sight But I’m a fatalistic cherrypicker So I’ma have a ball till my slipper falls And when the whole show blows to smithereens Oh, I’ll be running for my life Running from myself I’m running from my life now Running for myself (Look at him go!) Little green running man Knows it’s never too much I can quit me any time There’s never any rush No, I’m a little green running man With one foot out the door I don’t have to be here anymore I don’t have to be here anymore I can quit this any time Emergency exit, you’re my zodiac Smacked me off the balcony I’ve leapt clean off before, I’m sure There’s no use opening my doors If the whole whorehouse is watching porn And I’m running for my life Running from myself I’m running from my life now Running for myself (Look at him go!) Little green running man Knows it’s never too much No, no, no I can quit me any time There’s never any rush No, I’m a little green running man With one foot out the door I don’t wanna be me anymore I don’t wanna be me anymore I can quit me any time Emergency exit, you’re my zodiac Signs! Signs! (Signs, symbols, signs, symbols) Signs! Signs! (Signs, symbols, signs, symbols) I’m a little green running man With one foot out the door One of these days I’ll stop running And realise my legs have been broken All along
22.	EXISTENTIAL ACUPUNCTURE 05:14	lyrics
He tells me to prove my existence I don’t know how to do that anymore I could send him body parts Do they belong to me? “Roughly” He brusquely blocks me, well This is what happens When I pause Netflix Feeling smart enough to send Messages to anonymous… Oh shit Better than this Am I better than this When this keeps happening I pause Netflix Thought I’m hot enough to send Messages to anonymous Idiots Oh shit Better than this Am I better than this? When I wanna pop holes in my windpipe Pushpins on the wah-wah-wall Staring down the barrel of the gun Until I feel the rights and rah-rah-wrongs They keep me up all night We’ll be up all night Keep me out all night We’ll be out all night Keep me up all night Me and the pushpins on the wah-wah-wall Kick a crown off Castles fall with the drawbridge As he drowns in my moat of consciousness I’m barking like a mad bitch I apologise to the wrong guy maybe fifty times But he needed fifty-one What the fuck? I’m not that dumb This is what happens When I pause Netflix Feeling smart enough to send Messages to anonymous dicks Oh shit Better than this Am I better than this A quick fix? When This keeps happening I pause Netflix Thought I’m hot enough to send Messages to anonymous Idiots Oh shit Better than this Am I better than this When I wanna pop holes in my windpipe Pushpins on the wah-wah-wall Dancing in the barrel of the gun Until I feel the rights and rah-rah-wrongs They keep me up all night We’ll be up all night Keep me out all night We’ll be out all night Keep me up all night Me and the pushpins on the wah-wah-wall If acupuncture is therapy Surely this pushpin is meant for me If acupuncture is therapy Clearly I have no enemies If acupuncture is therapy Surely this pushpin is meant for me If acupuncture is therapy I am my only enemy with (Holes in my windpipe Pushpins on the wall Dancing in the barrel of the gun Until I feel the rights and wrongs They keep me up all night We’ll be up all night Keep me out all night We’ll be out all night Keep me up all night Me and the pushpins on the wah-wah-wall) We f— (We fight! Me and the pushpins on the wall We fight Me and the pushpins on the wall We fight Me and the pushpins on the wall We fight Me and the pushpins on the wall, wall We fight Me and the pushpins on the wall We fight, fight, fight Me and the pushpins on the wall)
23.	HIGH ROLLERS 06:07	lyrics
Soak the walls in smoke Crackle stones in pipes Pairing pills like wine Gourmet death, dining fine Gonna go to Hell tonight Tell you if it’s boring Roll your eyes, saucer-wide UFO flight Tonight I’m where I’m going Drove insane clean off a cliff Psycho high, no hokum I confide abyss I never could escape my cynical frame Supercilious pawn in a pointless game Rollin’ my die Rollin’ my die Rollin’ my Dice my life away Every little square is a walk of shame Same as I was then but tomorrow ain’t today So I’m rollin’ my die Rollin’ my die Rollin’ my Dice my life away Let’s roll Roll! Roll! My-my, my-my Roll My-my-my Let’s roll Roll Roll My-my, my-my Roll My-my-my See ya on the flip side Psychically disintegrating Oh, fuck my progress I’ll just pop up in a second save (woo!) Gonna go to heaven tonight And surely die of boredom Fill me with your Come and rip my body open Tonight I’m where I’m going Drove insane clean off a cliff Psycho high, no hokum I confide abyss I never could escape my cynical frame Supercilious pawn in a pointless game rollin’ my die Rollin’ my die Rollin’ my Dice my life away Every little square is a walk of shame Same as I was then but tomorrow ain’t today So I’m rollin’ my die Rollin’ my die Rollin’ my Dice my life away Let’s roll Roll! Roll! My-my, my-my Roll My-my-my Let’s roll Roll Roll My-my, my-my Roll My-my-my I hope that’s my little heart giving out Not the sound of you beside me getting up I don’t wanna wake up again tonight, tonight, tonight I hope that’s my little heart giving out Not the sound of you beside me getting up I don’t wanna wake up again tonight No, no, no ‘Cause I never could escape my cynical frame Supercilious pawn in a pointless game Just rollin’ my die Rollin’ my die Rollin’ my Dice my life away Every little square is a walk of shame Same as I was then but tomorrow ain’t today So I’m rollin’ my die Rollin’ my die Rollin’ my Dice my life away Let’s roll Roll! Roll! Roll! My-my-my Roll My-my-my God (What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going? What if tonight we get where going?)
24.	BODYWEIGHTS 05:54	lyrics
Diving off the balcony again Sunk cost fallacies made our bed Open up your heart so I can shit on it Well, aren’t we friends? Hanging overhead, my sunny guillotine I weaponise death Methamphetamine breath Go ahead, sure, played you like a puppet But emotional blackmail ain’t a long string Now you’re in for a penny So we’re in for a pound Another kilogram of my bodyweight To hold you down I will hold us down So won’t you carry me Once I die in your lap Won’t you lift me up? My clearcut math Will you bury me When I die in your lap? You could be the straw man Ride the camel’s back Culpability is so damn easy When healing is too facile Who am I without this precious hopelessness? Raised a palace in a graveyard Played the king Living life on a chessboard Where no one wins Unchecked, my Emotional blackmail is a long game But I’m in for a penny Now we’re in for a pound Another kilogram of my bodyweight To slow me down I‘ll slow us down So won’t you carry me Once I die in your lap Won’t you lift me up? My clearcut math Will you bury me When I die in your lap? You could be the straw man Ride the camel’s back And carry me (And carry me! Yeah, and carry me! Oh, and carry me! Yeah, just carry me!) Don’t come too close, please I’m trying to keep You safe from me From me I’m a little black hole Sinking through the earth (Don’t you know?) Putty in the palm I’m your little iceberg Just a bodyweight On your bodyweight On my bodyweight On your bodyweight On my I’m still reeling from Oh, everything But I floss more At least I floss more (I’m still reeling from everything But you can hold me till then) Yes, I’m a little whirlpool Spinning down the drain, but You can swim along till then My friend A bodyweight on your Bodyweight on my Bodyweight on your Bodyweight on my Bodyweight on your Bodyweight on my... (Colouring me in till I finally snap Tallying hope till I finally snap) No lifeguard can save me now (Interlocking fingers till I finally snap Colouring me in till I finally snap)
25.	#newyearknewme 03:54	lyrics
I made another friend today Oh, it hurts, I know Loving all the shit he says This could worsen, though I guess I’ve made it far; I’m never sure Oh it hurts, I know Winter in the park where I met you first This could worsen, though ‘Cause the new year knew me Better than really anybody Everybody’s hurting and searching Chasing our tails around Against again Against again Against again Again Against again Against again Against again... Don’t tell my friends ‘bout the fiends I feed Oh, it hurts, I know These deeds I’ve done, all of which I won’t speak This could worsen though Leave the windows open and I nap through the noon Yeah, it hurts, I know Let the cold wind tint my olive skin blue This could worsen though Because the new year knew me Better than really anybody Everybody’s hurting and searching Chasing our tails around The new year knew me Better than really anybody Are we undeserving, hunting the perfect? Chasing our tails around Against again Against again Against again Again Against again Against again, Against again, again Again, again, again We’re skin to skin You and me Happy as we could be Could it be? We’re skin to skin You and me Happy as we’ll ever be Which unfortunately Is not very much (Some people are born fucked)
26.	aquarium 04:55	lyrics
(Some people are born fucked) Nihilistic prayers Float away in little bubbles Slow mo waltzing away From your truh-uh-uh-oubles Skinful of the frippery, sunken in the misery Sulking in a silly sea o’ silver screen insolvency Oh, please Must that really be me? What if there’s no ocean For a shark like me? When the seas are losing fish Who cares if I’m free? See him from a distance Bumping into glass wa-ah-ah-ah-alls Riveted by rivers Secretly a waterfa-ah-ah-ah-all This Solipsistic Narcissus Fishing for a death wish Swishing in a silly sea o’ silver screen insolvency Oh, dear, must that really be me? What if there’s no ocean For a shark like me? When the seas are losing fish Who cares, who cares if I’m free? What if there’s no ocean For a shark like me? When the seas are losing dolphins Who cares if I’m free?  Oh, I don’t know how I could live again Swim up to the surface, the end No, I don’t know if I should live again Swim up to the surface, the end What if there’s no ocean For a shark like me? When the seas are losing fish Who cares, who cares if I’m free? Oh, what if there’s no ocean For a shark like me, me, me, me, me? When the seas are losing dolphins Who gives a fuck if I’m free? Aquarium baby Am I now a memory? Aquarium baby Chasing immortality Aquarium baby Is this all I’ll ever be? Aquarium baby Is this all I’ll ever be? Aquarium baby Don’t you wanna be free? Aquarium baby Do you wanna be free? (‘Cause you could be You could be You’re still here But you could disappear)
27.	YVR (1000 summers) 03:44	lyrics
I really shouldn’t be here Can’t afford this seat on the plane Do I deserve this view? Unsure how I feel when he calls my name Maybe I can write myself a happy ending Use a superpower for good Maybe I can stop pretending, settle in Like I dreaded I would, so I might let a good thing grow I might let a good thing go, let it pass I might let a good one grow I might let a good one go last Had a good cry And my bank account broke Oh no, caught it all on video Bald eagle in the sky And my camera broke I’ll get over it, though Eh, want it all on video Oh, I’ll get over it though Eh, want it all on video Oh, I’ll get over it, I know For a thousand dollars I could cross the sky For a thousand summers I could make him mine For a thousand dollars I could say goodbye For a thousand summers I could change my mind (Mine) Yeah, immortality made me crazy Obsessing with legacy I don’t give it legs these days I’m acing, wavy Finding myself somewhere else A cliché maybe Grateful I can see myself, though No ghost, a little hope so I might let a good thing grow I might let a good thing go, let it pass (Let it pass!) I might let a good one grow I might let a good one go last Had a good cry And my bank account broke Oh no, caught it all on video Bald eagle in the sky And my camera broke I’ll get over it, though Eh, want it all on video Oh, I’ll get over it though Eh, want it all on video Oh, I’ll get over it, I know For a thousand dollars I could cross the sky For a thousand summers I could make him mine For a thousand dollars I could say goodbye For a thousand summers I could change my mind (Mine Mine My, my Mine)
28.	gatorskins 03:39	lyrics
(I’m a bad, bad, bad, bad person But I can sublimate me) Ten years of therapy in little squares Diamonds, dug out my debonair Hard to believe I was always there And yes, it hurts, I know I was given shoes in which I ran From two left feet, but I’m throwing hands Up in the air with all my plans So this could worsen though I could lay my life down, say I’ve had enough But I re-up on the armour when I swan along the bluff ‘Cause, ‘morrow I might snuff it, but I’ll just keep it light Know my legs are mega dead; I’m still picking up this bike ‘cause I fell off for a year or five Maybe wasted time Made a wrong in every right I could lie, feign my own backslide Though I’m feeling fine I hold these bars too tight But I’m pedalling, I’m pedalling down Pedalling, I’m pedalling down Pedalling, I’m pedalling down Pedalling, I’m pedalling down Easy to boast I’ll swim to shore Or hopscotch bop to the ocean’s floor Ten years of therapy I can’t afford And yes, it hurts, I know So I only wear shoes in which I’ll dance I triple-knot laces in a trance Still I’m struggling to command, but This could worsen though Albatross haloing my head like a crown now I don’t need to spin out, I just loop the loop, wow Hit the ground but I hit it running for my life And they stole my fucking wheels, but I’m still picking up the bike, yeah! I fell off for a year or five Maybe wasted time Made a wrong in every right I could lie, feign my own backslide Though I’m feeling fine I hold these bars too tight But I’m pedalling, I’m pedalling down Pedalling, I’m pedalling down Pedalling, I’m pedalling down Pedalling, I’m pedalling down I’ll fall off for a year or five Maybe waste my time Make a wrong in every right I won’t hide nor fake a careworn smile Though I’m feeling fine I’ll hold these bars too tight Still pedalling, pedalling down Pedalling, I’m pedalling down Pedalling, I’m pedalling down Pedalling, I’m pedalling down Yeah
29.	lunatic 04:29	lyrics
Was a prince of a playpen Landlocked arrogant Castled in a corner Courting bores and a mortgage Snorting coke and ketamine On a morbid, torrid Christmas Eve Cavort to twigs in a stranger’s bed All I ever scored, I now regret But, hey, I liked the game And, hey, at least I played Caught with the flotsam Knew I’d never be a better man Crucified conscience Vomiting nonsense Shaking hands with a vice’s grip Proffered parting gifts as party trick I burned my heart beside his bed All I’ve ever loved I soon forget But, hey, I was in pain And, hey, I’m not ashamed A lunatic puzzler Watching his self suffer Rolling my eyes at my reflection Yeah, we’re cool Thought it was a given Genetic determinism Has writ my death so I lost the plot All I ever fear is all I’ve got But, hey, I tried to change And, hey, I’m still afraid (Hey, yeah, I shape the maze) I hate how love subsists My greatest gracelessness I wasted all my wits on these Death wishes, death wishes Hate how love subsists My greatest gracelessness I wasted all my wits on these Death wishes, death wishes Death wishes, death wishes Death But, hey, yeah It’s just a phase And, hey, yeah I shape this maze Hey, yeah Hey, yeah Hey, yeah I’m still amazed Yeah, yeah Yeah, yeah I’m still amazed
30.	determinism 06:07	lyrics
Shouted Love till I bent the meaning Ended up cheapening pent feeling Tore it down in the name of freedom So once again I guess I’m bleeding New friends wear familiar faces So I outgrow and dwarf ‘em shamelessly Or then I blackout when I fear the stasis Yet I wake to curate mistakes so I’m better off creating the space to Breakdown! Knockout every memory Burn down all the greenery The guardin’ of my heartbeat I’m gonna flatline Claw out all my old designs Smoke out every lifeline By bible or biology That self-destructive palmistry All the shit that happened before Know it hurts, but I don’t keep score anymore What for? Eye for eye and shame for shame Let’s lay the blame on surnames You’re not a stone sunken in the river And I’m not a ripple of a pebble, I’m a swimmer So I won’t waste my days Fencing my own emotions Blow my heart apart We’ll throw confetti on the quotient and Breakdown! Knockout every memory Burn down all the greenery The guardin’ of my heartbeat I’m gonna flatline Drumming with sticks of dynamite tonight Syncopating lifetimes Alchemy or chemistry That self-destructive ecstasy And maybe I must have hurt me And maybe I still deserve it Well, at least I’ve earned this I’ve earned this I’ve earned this I’ve earned to Breakdown! Knockout every memory Burn down all the greenery The guardin’ of my heartbeat I’m gonna flatline Leave my prophetess behind She’s forgiven but not divine Let’s welcome in what’s after me and That self-destructive rhapsody And maybe I’ve let them hurt me And maybe I did not deserve it Well, at least I’m learning I’m learning I’m learning I’m learning I’m learning
31.	fucked 05:00	lyrics
(Some people are born fucked) I lost my phone on the bike ride home Spent twenty minutes trying to find it though Lost my love on a Friday night Spent two years trying to get me right Lost my job and my routine plans Shrugging it off, just the way I am Eyes so brown like the Winter trees Spent too long trying to grow ‘em green Sign on the bus with the broken O Says 31F Georgetown GO I’m unlucky but at least I know (Some people are born fucked) 31F Georgetown GO All I am, that I am doing now Will not fix what’s happened or how No, no, no All I’ve done or decided back then Is no excuse for what’s happening Has no control on what’s happening! Sign on the bus with the broken O Says 31F Georgetown GO Yeah, I’m unlucky but at least I know Some people are born... 31 Fuck that, I'm going home (Sign on the bus with the broken O Says 31F Georgetown GO I’m unlucky but at least I know 31F Georgetown GO!) Never could get that little halo Guess it’s time I just let it go
32.	Optimism 04:01	lyrics
Don’t know what you’ve been thinking You’re searching Ive gone missing Voicemail on my phone Reminds me Im a home Created space like hobby Ive turned us into astronomy Far out you saw me sinking Still, you’re coming close Well you can call me in the night Find me everyday Ill be waiting up with something to say Show you where it hurts Tell me how you’ve grown We can pass time to feel less alone Never is enough Hold it till its gone Some goddam kindness wouldn’t hurt me Never is enough Hold me till Im gone Some goddam kindness wouldn’t hurt at all All distance is collapsible Just menu bars on a webpage I reach out pull you through the squall We recall Call me in the night Find me everyday I’ll be waiting up with nothing to say Show me all you’ve learned Tell you where I’ve flown We can waste time to feel less alone Never is enough Hold it till its gone Some goddam kindness wouldn’t hurt me Never is enough Hold me till I’m gone Some goddam kindness wouldn’t hurt at all Some goddam kindness wouldn’t hurt at all Some goddam kindness wouldn’t hurt at all Some goddam kindness wouldn’t hurt at all Some goddam kindness wouldn’t hurt at all

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'The Sabotage Montage' is informed by a cornucopia of styles: the dynamism of classical music; the roughly hewn, DIY ethos of punk; the rhythms and cadences of hip-hop and R&B; the meticulous studio programming of neurotic electronica.

None of this would float without the buoyant pop hooks lending levity to Rswll's otherwise grim subject matter. Rswll frames his vignettes of drug abuse, suicidal ideation, and debilitating isolation with colourful melodies and a sardonic humour. As an autobiographical lyricist, uncomfortable intimacy is his focal goal.

Given patience and an attentive ear, the project's internal logic rewards in spades: both lyrics and sounds allude to psychic bruises and unresolved guilt as Rswll's narrator develops, as heralded themes soon overstay their welcome.

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released March 19, 2021

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POSSESS YOURSELF!

Sep 2022
The SABOTAGE MONTAGE

Mar 2021
Hibernus

Dec 2021
Autumnus

Sep 2021
Estivus

Jun 2021
Vernus

Mar 2021
2019

Jan 2024
How I learned to love the bomb.

Feb 2019
CASIO Keyboard & Heartbreak

Dec 2016
I'm not the joke!

May 2016
DARKNET

Oct 2015
2014

Dec 2017

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