The Sabotage Montage on tape, containing all four Quadrants:
• Vernus
• Estivus
• Autumnus
• Hibernus
Packaging, pad print artwork and slipcase designed by Rswll. This special release is limited to only 96 copies and will not be reproduced. Each copy is numbered in black Sharpie by Rswll's hand.
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Info
- Wrapped in a Double Cassette Slipcase (w/ Thumbholes)
- Clear Cassette with Metallic Red Liner
- Super Ferro Normal-Bias Tape
- Unique Pad Prints on Each Side of the Cassettes
- Professionally Real-Time Duplicated
Includes unlimited streaming of Vernus
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For a long time, this was nothing more than a half-song bound for an imagined follow-up project, but as I continued to tinker with the song, squeeze it into into the traditional pop structures we know and love, some great melodies were exhumed. And then that bridge melody (“I know you wanna fuck me better!”) suddenly appeared, under different words at the time—literally don’t know how or why, but it did—and I decided this ought to be a proper pop song.
This is a bit of a too-surreal-to-be-real tidbit of info, as my life very often tends to be, but, about the chorus:
The subject of this song wrote it, in a way. For one of his own songs, for one of his own bands. We’d had a bit of an argument about a part of his song, some post-chorus melody, I believe. I suggested that, considering the rarity of such a millable melody, he should repeat it a bit more in the song, really hammer it home. Turn his anonymous 90s rock thing into a saleable, delicious pop gem.
If memory is to be trusted—though it usually isn’t, mind you!—he immediately turned sour and defensive, and the discussion devolved into artist identity politics, about his learned history and storied experience which obviously dwarfed mine, he being the older, seasoned, working musician, myself being the naïve never-has-been bedroom pop artist. He’s already tried the pop thing, he maybe said. (As if it were a piece of clothing to be worn exactly once!)
Naturally, in spite, I filched from memory that post-chorus of his—unintentionally at first, as I think the whole nature of that argument was seared into my brain, his song looping in my head, the ironic soundtrack to our relationship’s demise. As time went on and I slowly detached from the memory—as I failed more relationships in similar style—I refreshed the song to address a bigger, overarching theme, centring on myself more. Same story, different characters, new perspective.
It really was the hardest song to finish, too. It has like three distinct tones to it and it was so fucking impossible to make it all gel without sounding smashed together, too academically contrived. Once I added the Quadrant-defining woodwinds, the challenge multiplied.
I just wanted it to reflect my brain, where everything’s always blurred together, parallel and perpendicular to something else, an analog or metaphor for another thing. I feel compelled to represent that multiplicity in my music else it isn’t me, which is why the songs are so often genre-agnostic and messy. The challenge is in presenting that mashed goop as a cohesive whole, not just haphazard spillage. I know this is a fucking mess, my songs try to say, but it’s an intentional mess; I know what I’m doing!
I think I’ve pulled it off, but I also think it could’ve existed as a straightforward, beat-less ballad. (I’ll probably play it live this way.) If you hear the demo, you’ll realise the trick was minimising the palette, focusing on a few key instruments, and drastically reducing the bass parts, even cutting it completely for the first chorus.
The verse melodies were really difficult to sing for some reason. Kept slipping into this weird sing-speak. Re-recorded it to the point of hating it, honestly.
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lyrics
This Spring I buried a man
Inside my head as I held his hand
Malevolent tongue snaked out
Soft palms napalm southpaws now
Fireworks and smokescreens
The belle-of-the-ball or GHB?
A neon-lit reverie
Far from the bitch he’d breed
I’ll just give it thanks
And you can turn to crank, man
A gram of love left never grand enough
Instead of filling blanks
Well, I’d rather keep it frank, man
You can keep gruff with a heart so tough but
I’ll be
Calling you out on your shit
I’m just
Calling you out on it
I’m just
Calling you out on your shit
I’m just
I’m waiting for karma’s kiss
Boy
I’ll be your masochist
Boy
Calling you out
Oh, I
Wonder if he’s still cruel and dismissive
Finicky tempest-tempered and capricious
So pitiful, his little criminal
Rebuffed till he fucked me a little, well...
Fireworks and smokescreens
The belle-of-the-ball amphetamine dreamin’
A neon-lit reverie
Far from the bitch I’d breed
So I’ll just give it thanks
And maybe turn to crank, man
A gram of love left never grand enough
And ‘stead of firing blanks
Well, I’d rather keep it frank, man
You can keep gruff with a heart so tough but
I’ll be
Calling you out on your shit
I’m just
Calling you out on it
I’m just
Calling you out on your shit
I’m just
I’m waiting for karma’s kiss
Boy
I’ll be your masochist
Boy
Calling you out
Oh, I
Yeah
I know you wanna screw me better
But I’ll be in my head forever
No I won’t be your scarlet letter
But I hope there’s someone worth your pain
Yeah, I hope there’s someone worth your pain
And I hope I’m someone worth this pain
‘Cause I’m just
Calling you out on your shit
I’m just
Calling you out on it
I’m just
Calling you out on your shit
I’m just...
Yeah, I know you wanna fuck me better!
But I’ll be in my head forever
So maybe I am just too tender
But I hope there’s someone worth this pain
Yeah, I hope there’s someone worth this
(Pain!)
Multi-instrumentalist and producer Harvey Carter's light touch makes his pleasant indie electronica sparkle and move. Bandcamp New & Notable Mar 12, 2024